Failed again...

Welp, this is fun, kids, no??

I have been on a major failure spree.  I'm so disappointed in myself.

But... today I start again... summer SUCKS for losing weight.... let me tell ya.

Anyhoo... 30 days starts again today... and Monday I will survey the damage of my indiscretions.

Onward and Downward,

LLoF

UGH!

This is ridiculous... I gained a pound.

No, I wasn't as strict as I should have been (but still was following the plan mostly!)

No, I haven't drank as much water as I should've been.

But GAINING??

UGH!!

Failing at exercising...

As the title suggests, I only managed to get in 1 day of exercise this week.  Though I've remained mostly on point with my food.  One day I did go 5 grams of sugar over my limit....

I've also slowed down my water intake.  I can't seem to get above 40-60 oz.  But I'm going to continue to try to remember to.

I've realized that this method of weightloss is a slow goer.  The reason why I avoid slow and steady type plans is because I know that if things aren't progressing as fast as I'd hoped, there is a high likelihood of me just giving up.

But, I'm not just gonna give up this time.  This diet seems like something I can pull off for a longer amount of time....

I don't feel deprived or anything... especially since the carb allowance isn't as oppressively low as Atkins.

So... I continue on... let's see what Monday's weigh-in brings...

Onward and downward,
LLoF

Thank you for being a friend...

So yesterday, a friend of mine was in a really sad mood, so I bought stuff to go make sundaes at her house to cheer her up.

I bought a low sugar ice cream and used minimal toppings  but I'm fairly certain I went over my sugar a bit yesterday.

But, it had to be done.

I think I'll go for a walk outside...

Onward and downward,
LLoF

Weigh-in

Welp, it's weigh-in day.

I lost 2.4 lbs. from last week.

I'm not gonna lie... I'm a bit disappointed.   Not sure why, I mean it's a good amount... but I did so well all week ... at that rate I won't lose this weight for 4 months.  Heck, I won't even reach my short term goal by the end of the 30 day challenge!

As you see from my previous post, I was hoping to hit goal in 3 months.

That just means I need to step up my game.  Today I start exercising and I'm gonna try to keep my carb intake to 4 servings vs. 6.

Onward and downward,
LLoF

Yay!

I did soooo well yesterday!

There was soo much yummy food goodness around and I was right on point with it!

So, so proud of myself! :D

Tomorrow is weigh-in!  Bring it on! :D

Onward and downward,

LLoF

So far so good...

But... this is the eve of destruction.  Or so I'm trying to avoid.  You guessed it....

Tomorrow we are going to the beach -- ugh -- and there will be LOTS of food, snacks, desserts to be had (the group we go with are VERY accomplished packers!)

Anyhoo... today two things happened that made me go all "FML":

1) I went to the store to pick up a "slimming" bathing suit.  FAIL.  I looked horrible.  I'm not sure what kinda "slimming" the makers of those suits were shooting for but I'm guessing it's for those skinny people that complain about their "pooch" on their stomachs that, to me, look more like all they need to do is take a shit.

2) I went and saw my daughter's wedding pictures.  Exactly what I didn't want to see, I saw.  Fat mama.  The only pics that are semi-redeemable were the candid ones and that's just because at least in some of them I had a remotely flattering angle.

Look, the way I see it is this... I only want to lose 45 lbs.  I see bazillions of "I did it!" websites where people lost 3 times that much in a year.  I think it's reasonable to shoot for losing my 45 in 3 months.

Though, I'd prefer 3 days.  ;)

Onward and downward,

LLoF

Mind over matter

Yesterday was a little tough.  I didn't cheat but I was feeling "snacky" and over-munched a bit.  

I also had my lowest level of water drunk in a day so far (40 oz.)

I went over my carb intake slightly but hit my sugar intake on the head.

Today will be better.

Onward and downward,
LLoF

Pizza??

Last night I realized that on the BFC diet, I could have PIZZA!  2 slices even!

Two slices of pizza, an antipasto salad and 2 tbsp of dressing cost me 4 servings of carbs and about 10 of my sugar allotment for the day.

WORTH. IT!

I went over my sugar intake by about .375.

Not too shabby.

Today I'm doing well, not gonna have pizza again though... making a fish dinner. :)   I'm doing really well with water intake.... though I've yet to hit my gallon goal (that's a LOT of water!)

I am blowing away the "8 glasses a day" rule.... so there's that.  :)  I've had 40 oz so far today. :)

Come on Monday! <--- never thought I'd say THAT!

Let's see what that weigh-in will bring...

Onward and downward,
LLoF

Wow...

Staying under 15 grams of sugar is tougher than I thought!

Sticking with it though!

#thatisall

Welp...

I weighed in like I said I would and shit's worse...

213.8

Been great on my diet today so ....

29 more days to go!

Sputter, sputter, cough... vrooom!

Hi!

OK, so yeah, I didn't do my dieting at all.

Truth be told, I've been depressed because I've been unable to get a job. But.... HUZZAH!  I got hired yesterday!! Yay!!

When I'm sad/depressed about something, food is my comfort and self-harm.  I want to do something self-destructive when I'm upset and food is usually my weapon of choice.

BUT! My biggest problem has just resolved itself... and I need to go ahead and move forward with my second "big" problem <---- ha! that's a weight joke!

So, here we go.... I'm gonna start back up on Monday being as my tracker starts on Mondays.  I'll still weigh-in though because that's just gotta happen.

This weekend I'm gonna try to keep the eating to a human level.  ;)

TGIF!

Ha!

So after that post, I immediately launched into a fail.

Whatever, I'm weighing in today anyway... so here's my updated stats.

I'm currently in the process of making a breakfast quiche (low carb)...

My 30 day challenge starts today -- again... being as I refuse to give myself credit for screwing up... so my 30 days reset every time I mess up.  Maybe THAT'LL learn me! :P

Ok, so here's today's weight:

213.4

So that's +.4  But being as I only work in halves, I'm staying with 213.  I have some inspiration jars I made that only deal with .5's so that's what I'm doing.

Here's a pic of them!

Onward and upward!!! (or downward as the case may be)...

20 years is half my life and long enough!

I have been overweight for 20 years.  Ever since I had my son.

That's exactly half my life.

I've gone up and down in all those years... actually even got half way to my goal weight once and BLAM.... I fell right back into my usual patterns...

I'm an emotion eater.  I get self-destructive when I'm upset... and I use every excuse in the book to cheat.

I'm keeping this blog to try to keep myself on track.  Again.

I decided to try the Belly Fat Cure "diet"... <--- gah! How I hate that word!

I found this fantastic blog where I downloaded a tracker.  See that site HERE.

And to keep myself honest, I'm sharing my tracker each week with you HERE.

Today, is day one.  It's a partial week but I'm going to weigh in on Mondays (it keeps me honest through the weekend -- or at least I like to think it does).

I really only want to lose about 45 lbs-ish then re-assess to see how I feel.  (I think "thicker" girls are sexy. ;) )

Shortly I will be putting up my "before" picture.... god help us all.